PHRONTISTERIES

We were talking about our social circles and deep deep secrets and how we managed them. To be honest as true as what I want to be I am not really that comfortable with opening up everything in my brain. You still see me as what I am, but no I don't tell you everything. 

The holidays weren't really holidays in my opinion, shooting for a close friend, editing teaser vids (look out for them!), honing my japanese (I still can't tell apart some katakana characters.). Pushing apart the facts that cafes are my thing, I just wanna find solace in empty low traffic hangouts where I can happily revise my jap, read some ebooks, drink some vanilla sencha and eat a lemon meringue tart. I can just be alone, or enjoying some silent time with my close friends.

All I need is a break, a long break, with nothing piled up on my hands, no expected outcome to be derived from this break, just an exploration. Exploration of my own mind, experimentation of my thoughts, learning about myself and setting myself free. Sometimes in the night I start to wander in my thoughts and I feel trapped in the expectations of being an adult, the dull thinking, the 24/7 worries of livelihood. I just can't think of another way out of problems than to solve it the 'adult' way, the conventional way. I don't want to be forced into growing up to a person that I least want to be.